when we were children

we were all creative


our fantasies were reality

until the path led us away

and sepereated the two


and now

they make fun of those

who stayed


You stopped.


This group of people called “the Millenials” often have a problem. Or several problems.

Not all of them are completely new or may seem unimportant – yet, it bugs us. After reaching a certain age somewhere near the twenties, neurologists tell us that our brains change. We cannot learn so fast anymore, we forget things we have learnt before, and so on.

This phase happens to coincide with a stage of “higher education”, namely college or university. I will just assume, representatively for most of my peers, that we decide to go there for some kind of purpose. Many may imagine a crazy, party-filled, druggy lifestyle for a few years. Some may even go there with the expectation of broadening their horizons. Meeting people. People who are interested into the same little details that fascinate them about the subjects they chose.

My question to all of you out there: have these imaginations become true?

Did you dig deeply into the literature for your seminars? Did you get the chance to do extracurricular activities? Activities that made you a person more interesting to the companies you want to apply for? Can you now finally name your favourite theorists; do you know their birthplaces and last words?

I wouldn’t answer any of these questions with a direct “no”, yet my “yes” wouldn’t be too enthusiastic either. Of course, I had some interesting lectures. I met some people I would die for. And especially my year abroad helped my personal development. Often there are phases where I try to increase my knowledge, buy magazines from all over the world and download apps to correct my weaknesses in geography.

But I sometimes feel that all of this is not enough. I am about to write my BA thesis and feel like I haven’t gained half the basics I should have. One of the magazines I read shows me that I forgot how to math, that the statistics that I remember from my economics class are completely outdated (specifically: China’s economic power is a LOT higher now than I remember) and that I don’t update myself enough on the situation in the middle east.

It is hard to realize that school actually did a good thing by pushing all these different subjects on me. It is even harder to realize that the speed in which I learn can never match the speed that new knowledge is found by smart people all over the globe. And maybe the hardest lesson is that I have all this knowledge at my fingertips while choosing to watch funny cat videos instead.

Have I stopped learning or trying? No. I still have things I care about, specific areas of knowledge I can impress at least non-experts with. And If I keep trying, I hope to make the step to an expert in at least one of these fields. The path may look dark and scary now. But then again, I often have the feeling that I am not alone.

Am I ready for life?

It all boils down to this question. Maybe this isn’t even specifically a Millenial thing – but rather an issue for all people suffering from one crisis or another every quarter of their lives.

Any tips how to stop that from happening?

A little list about london


So, I’ve “lived” in the UK’s capital for one month now. So here I am giving some advice to the one-month-ago me.

1. London is the only city where you can buy the citizenship for a fiver. Get an Oyster card, and no-one will be able to tell that you are not from there. (As soon as you know how to tap it the right way). Even if you wear a huge camera or can’t speak English that well, people will think you are a photographer or just from Chinatown, little Italy, etc.

2. Know places other than Pret, EAT and Starbucks. Of course they always come handy when you are in need for an open network connection, but they are also boring. And London has a lot of good, cheaper-than-average tearooms.

3. Make it through rush hour in the tube. The only thing that counts there is survival. I don’t know if it’s the absence of light or internet, but people become animals in there.

4. Take the bus whenever you can. With my monthly travelcard I can explore London in that way, and people aren’t quite as brutal there.

5. Find a cheap cinema. Not even cheap, but affordable. I love the cinema, but I hate paying £15. For a STUDENT TICKET.

6. Check event pages. London is big, so there’s a lot of stuff going on. If you don’t want to miss out, try TimeOut magazine or some facebook pages. I’ve been lucky enough to stumble upon the Africa Festival and Hyper Japan so far. Good stuff.

I was celebrating Ramadan. Kind of.

Hello people of the internet,

I haven’t been really active in the online world for the past month. Some people may think I finally converted to be a muslim, but it was just the circumstances.

My life took a weird twist, and I ended up being in England again. I applied to the wonderful Friends of the Earth and can volunteer in London over the summer. It is amazing to live here.

But my accomodation is not the best. Since my brother has a really cool internship with Google, I have been crashing his place for the last month. The reasons are obvious: with horrendous rents of like 400 quid a week (sic!) I just want to save money, and it’s located next to Paddington (pretty handy).

BUT little did I know that I have to sleep on the floor (I have the luxury of a 1mm thick mat) and DON’T have INTERNET or a KITCHEN. On top of that, I didn’t have my laptop charger, so i couldn’t even be a hipster and use the free WiFi in Starbucks or Costa. I realized in this month what big part my laptop and the internet are in my life, and that I couldn’t go without them for just one more day.

So in one week I am moving out. To Zone 3, but at least I will have internet again. Fasting is over, back to the digital world.